Heartbreak. Not just a word applicable for lovers, but generally for people who cares for another, regardless of the relationship.
Sometimes, hurtful words are not from the lies said behind my back.
Sometimes, these are also the things that are true, but are dearly private I only shared to people I deeply trust and have confidence in, then I'd find out that it was spoken carelessly to others like it was a topic totally unimportant and just something to freely criticize.
Yes, some of what people talk about behind me are true. Yes, some of them are not right. Yes, I am mostly a person who have done a great deal of sin.
I don't deny that. But the fact that these mistakes are freely spoken behind me by people I greatly care about... whom I trusted to somehow fight for me and not establish an image of me like I'm made up of all those mistakes, people whom I thought would somehow highlight the good side of me instead of concentrating on my faults especially in front of others...
Honestly, it hurts.
I have learned not to get too affected by what other people say about me.
But having to learn it came from people I care deeply?...
Well, it hasn't crossed my mind to learn not to care of what they say because it never occurred to me that someday, they will be the ones to actually break my heart.
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