Monday, August 24, 2015

Profound Nothingness | Throwback

(c) BartLouise

"The high volume of my coffee intake today did nothing to improve my mood.

There really is solace in oblivion. Heightened awareness gives off higher capacity for sympathy and empathy, causing one's supply of energy to be easily depleted.

I don't even miss anyone for I know it is a lost cause. It's the lack of entity to miss... the nothingness is so profound.

You were/are/will never be mine. Whilst I am unconditionally yours.

Emptiness prevails."

- Shine Bennet
08/03/2015

Sunday, August 23, 2015

A Message I Sent to an Ex | Throwback



"...nandun pa yung love. Alam mo bakit may part na lagi kang naguguluhan sakin?? Kasi ‘yun yung part na ‘di mo makuha yung dahilan kung bakit mahal kita. You always try to look for the reason kasi.

‘Di mo matanggap na mahal kita. As in yun lang talaga.

I will always love you, no matter what. Napatunayan mo na ‘yon just in case you doubt it now, kasi the "no matter what" part was even bigger before, diba? You kept doing stunts to make me cry, make me break down, make me jealous, make me soooo down and confused. Lahat na nang pagtulak ata nagawa mo na eh. But I stayed. Kasi nga, despite all of it, I love you.

Paanong nangyari na nawala tayo?

Ako ba? Ikaw yung unsure. Ikaw yung malikot. Ikaw yung ‘di mapakali. Ngayon pa ba sa palagay mo mawawala yung ganun katinding love, kung ngayong ‘di mo ako masaktan? Kung yung super sakit, ‘di mo mapawala ung feelings, ngayon pa ba na wala ka na to cause me pain?

There is no ‘us’ anymore because I wanted you to be happy. My greatest sacrifice was that kahit ‘di nagbabago yung love ko, I let you go.

I will always be the love story you once had that would have made millions cry... and with the love I was willing to share, you would have expected it to go on within this lifetime. The kind of loyalty and love na pilit hinahanap ng mga tao.

I know this not because I’m bragging. I know this, kasi alam ko lahaaaat ng tumakbo sa isip ko at pinagdaanan ko. Yung ganun kasakit pero nasasabi ko paring mahal kita.
We are where we are because you decided to go against what we had.

Masaya ka ba? Masaya ka ba, na nanalo kang itulak ako palayo?


Five years from now, would you still remember the girl who cared for you with all her heart?

This entire message isn’t a ‘WHAT IF’ anymore. It’s about ‘I LOVE YOU… BUT WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?’."

Friday, August 7, 2015

Coffee Addiction, Love Affliction


Shitty days make me wanna call you. Just to hear your voice. Let's talk about shitty stuff. Not exactly about my shitty day. Just anything. An excuse to hear your voice.

But I don't have that luxury. So I dream about talking to you, for a few seconds. Then I suck it up. Suck it all up.

Just like coffee. I want coffee right now. I can have coffee. Coffee is good. Coffee is attainable. So, shitty day, shitty mood... I'd get coffee. Suck it up then coffee.

Sounds like a plan. Cool.




-Shine Bennet